LJ Idol: Week 0, Title: Who am I
Posted on 2015.11.20 at 19:11
Who am I?
It’s hard to explain a person in words on a page. There are the bullet points of life, which sometimes say too little. Then there are those level five friendship - whisper in the dead of night- deepest desires and darkest fears type things, which are probably too much information. So, as we’re here to read and write, and given that writing is often akin to spilling a soul onto the page, I think I’ll explain what kind of writer I am instead; that might give some insight.
I have a lot of ideas, they swirl around my head, most of them stay there swimming around, unwritten, spooling out into a hundred directions. I think about them before I go to sleep. I think about them when I wake up. I think about them on the toilet.
And then I procrastinate. When I’m supposed to write a novel, I write short original fiction. Try to write short original fiction, I end up writing fanfic. When I try to write fanfic, I end up watching audio commentaries for the purpose of ‘research’.
I would like to try writing in different places but I only write at my desk. I would like to try writing while drunk, just to see what I come out with, but I never have. I would like to try writing with a background of heavy metal music but it’s one more thing I’ve never gotten around to. I would like to try writing in different spaces physical and mental, just to see what comes out. To just be angry or sad or excited and write. But I hardly ever write anything on impulse that hasn’t floated for a while.
I like to try different styles and forms and ways of writing and did so more than ever in last years Idol. I would like to do more.
I would like to tear my pieces apart, re-work them, re-write them into something better. But I am afraid.
I would also like to write in a team. We all need to be taken outside of ourselves sometimes, for our creations to be more than just ourselves, for them to be bigger, to grow, that is the wonder that comes of collaboration, bouncing ideas, realising a creation that otherwise could never have been.
I like to explore and I like to play but I’m a creature of habit, staying in one place, spinning through the world on a road that only exists in my mind.
I like to explore and play but I rarely actually do; I need stimulation, inspiration, prompts; to push me to try things I want to do but wouldn’t. And that’s why I’m here.
I am a writer. This is the most magnificent of writerly playgrounds. I look forward to playing with you all.
It’s hard to explain a person in words on a page. There are the bullet points of life, which sometimes say too little. Then there are those level five friendship - whisper in the dead of night- deepest desires and darkest fears type things, which are probably too much information. So, as we’re here to read and write, and given that writing is often akin to spilling a soul onto the page, I think I’ll explain what kind of writer I am instead; that might give some insight.
I have a lot of ideas, they swirl around my head, most of them stay there swimming around, unwritten, spooling out into a hundred directions. I think about them before I go to sleep. I think about them when I wake up. I think about them on the toilet.
And then I procrastinate. When I’m supposed to write a novel, I write short original fiction. Try to write short original fiction, I end up writing fanfic. When I try to write fanfic, I end up watching audio commentaries for the purpose of ‘research’.
I would like to try writing in different places but I only write at my desk. I would like to try writing while drunk, just to see what I come out with, but I never have. I would like to try writing with a background of heavy metal music but it’s one more thing I’ve never gotten around to. I would like to try writing in different spaces physical and mental, just to see what comes out. To just be angry or sad or excited and write. But I hardly ever write anything on impulse that hasn’t floated for a while.
I like to try different styles and forms and ways of writing and did so more than ever in last years Idol. I would like to do more.
I would like to tear my pieces apart, re-work them, re-write them into something better. But I am afraid.
I would also like to write in a team. We all need to be taken outside of ourselves sometimes, for our creations to be more than just ourselves, for them to be bigger, to grow, that is the wonder that comes of collaboration, bouncing ideas, realising a creation that otherwise could never have been.
I like to explore and I like to play but I’m a creature of habit, staying in one place, spinning through the world on a road that only exists in my mind.
I like to explore and play but I rarely actually do; I need stimulation, inspiration, prompts; to push me to try things I want to do but wouldn’t. And that’s why I’m here.
I am a writer. This is the most magnificent of writerly playgrounds. I look forward to playing with you all.
